"I give up, I'm through with trying"
"I give up, I've done all I can do"
from Roy Orbison's "I Give Up"
I don't even know who this Roy Orbison is. According to Wikipedia, Roy Kelton Orbison (April 23, 1936 – December 6, 1988), nicknamed "The Big O," was an influential Grammy Award-winning American singer-songwriter, guitarist and a pioneer of rock and roll whose recording career spanned more than four decades. In 1987, he was inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and in 1989, he was posthumously inducted into the Songwriters Hall of Fame. I just wanted to find some lyrics about my giving up, so I Blingo'd "lyrics give up" and his song came up in one of the results.
And, like the song says, I give up. I'm through with trying to get a job, and I feel that I've done all I can do. Well, I kind of don't feel that way, but I should. Having submitted over 100+ resumes in the past 5 weeks, I say that I've done enough. The job searching is over. Tourist season has begun.
Wednesday and Thursday were quite uneventful. It rained for those two days, which gave me a chance to stay in my room without feeling guilty. Especially since I was in quite some physical pain during that time. Now that I think about it, maybe it was my old age and my body becoming all achy because of the rain. Haha. I really am old.
Last night was when I first tried to get into action. If you read my other blog, you know that I gave myself until today to get a job or become a tourist. Last night, knowing with my superpower that I would not become an employed kiwi, I started to look at all the brochures and guides that I have picked up along the way. There were so many, they covered my bed.. in layers. I started to go through them, one by one, writing down where to go in what cities, what to do, etc etc etc.. until my head exploded. Being the anal perfectionist that I am, I want to do everything. I want to go everywhere that's mentioned, see everything that can be seen, and do everything possible so I can leave this country without an ounce or gram or miniscule amount of regret. But that is IMPOSSIBLE. There is just so much.. too much. It does more than boggle the mind.. it makes it explode. So, yet again, I gave up. I decided to go for the tour option. They decide where to go, what to do, where to stay, and they take care of transportation, which is a big issue for me. I decided I wanted a hop-on, hop-off tour, since I'm sure the tours won't include everything that I feel is a must-do and won't stay as long in some places as I would like, but that still left me with several options. And with an exploded head, I was in no state of mind to decide what to do.
So today I went to the tourist information centre, went up to one of the ladies at the counter, plopped down all 5 of my tour flyers, and asked which one I should do. The lady (her name is Alyson) was really nice and went through all my options with me. She discussed what certain tours offered that others didn't, why I might prefer one over the other, so on and so forth. She was very helpful. In the end, I decided to go with Stray Travel's "Stray Everywhere" plan, which takes you pretty much everywhere in New Zealand. I'm too lazy and tired to go into detail on the plan, but if you go to their website and look up their Stray Everywhere tour, you can find out for yourself! So with Stray Everywhere, and Stray Beds (vouchers for accommodation, which is not included in the cost), and my YHA card (Hostelling International Card), the total came out to $1950. Wowza. I will be getting on the bus that departs from the city at 7:45am (which means I have to leave the house around 6:15am TT_TT) on Thursday, so a little under a week from now.
At its shortest, the tour will take 32 days. But since I will probably want to stay in some places longer than the tour has planned, I'm thinking that it'll be 5-6 weeks for me. Closer to 5 than 6, but somewhere in that range. And taking into consideration that there are still places in Auckland that I need to see when I come back, I'm thinking that I'll probably leave at the end of January to go back home.
I'm excited, yet terrified. I don't know what to pack. I don't know how to pack. I don't know how to prepare. I just.. don't know what to do. I think the terror outweighs the excitement. Oh the horror of it all.
Anyway, after all that jazz, I finally went to Auckland Domain and walked around. Saw the duck pond, the tropical house, the gardens, etc. Took quite a few pictures of all the flora. These pictures, along with those from Parnell, will be uploaded eventually, I promise. I just can't say when. Am currently not in the mood to even get out my camera from its case :P
Ahhhh, speaking of camera.. I lost my 512mb SD card! I put all my edited photos to print out on that card.. and now I can't find it! I know it should be in my room somewhere, but I searched everywhere and I can't find it. Please pray that I find it soon!!!
Anyway, tomorrow Joseph is taking me along on a trip with his sister and a friend to one of the neighbouring islands. I forgot the name of the island ^^# But that should be nice. And at night is CocaCola's Christmas in the Park. Jeffrey was supposed to go with me, but he already has plans with his friend for tomorrow. He said he thought this was "next week." Hmmph. But I think I'm going to be able to talk Pastor Yang and his wifey into going with me, so I won't be alone *^^* I probably won't be blogging about it tomorrow, since I won't get home until around 11pm, but I will try to on Sunday.
As you can see, things are--just possibly--starting to look up. And on that note, I will leave you with lyrics from a happier song that I found on my lyrics search, and a song that I personally love: Josh Groban's "You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)"
Don't give up, it's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy, I will lift it for you
Don't give up, because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well, I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up, because you are loved
Don't give up, it's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside, I will be there to find you
Don't give up, because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well, I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up, Because you are loved
You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved
"I give up, I've done all I can do"
from Roy Orbison's "I Give Up"
I don't even know who this Roy Orbison is. According to Wikipedia, Roy Kelton Orbison (April 23, 1936 – December 6, 1988), nicknamed "The Big O," was an influential Grammy Award-winning American singer-songwriter, guitarist and a pioneer of rock and roll whose recording career spanned more than four decades. In 1987, he was inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and in 1989, he was posthumously inducted into the Songwriters Hall of Fame. I just wanted to find some lyrics about my giving up, so I Blingo'd "lyrics give up" and his song came up in one of the results.
And, like the song says, I give up. I'm through with trying to get a job, and I feel that I've done all I can do. Well, I kind of don't feel that way, but I should. Having submitted over 100+ resumes in the past 5 weeks, I say that I've done enough. The job searching is over. Tourist season has begun.
Wednesday and Thursday were quite uneventful. It rained for those two days, which gave me a chance to stay in my room without feeling guilty. Especially since I was in quite some physical pain during that time. Now that I think about it, maybe it was my old age and my body becoming all achy because of the rain. Haha. I really am old.
Last night was when I first tried to get into action. If you read my other blog, you know that I gave myself until today to get a job or become a tourist. Last night, knowing with my superpower that I would not become an employed kiwi, I started to look at all the brochures and guides that I have picked up along the way. There were so many, they covered my bed.. in layers. I started to go through them, one by one, writing down where to go in what cities, what to do, etc etc etc.. until my head exploded. Being the anal perfectionist that I am, I want to do everything. I want to go everywhere that's mentioned, see everything that can be seen, and do everything possible so I can leave this country without an ounce or gram or miniscule amount of regret. But that is IMPOSSIBLE. There is just so much.. too much. It does more than boggle the mind.. it makes it explode. So, yet again, I gave up. I decided to go for the tour option. They decide where to go, what to do, where to stay, and they take care of transportation, which is a big issue for me. I decided I wanted a hop-on, hop-off tour, since I'm sure the tours won't include everything that I feel is a must-do and won't stay as long in some places as I would like, but that still left me with several options. And with an exploded head, I was in no state of mind to decide what to do.
So today I went to the tourist information centre, went up to one of the ladies at the counter, plopped down all 5 of my tour flyers, and asked which one I should do. The lady (her name is Alyson) was really nice and went through all my options with me. She discussed what certain tours offered that others didn't, why I might prefer one over the other, so on and so forth. She was very helpful. In the end, I decided to go with Stray Travel's "Stray Everywhere" plan, which takes you pretty much everywhere in New Zealand. I'm too lazy and tired to go into detail on the plan, but if you go to their website and look up their Stray Everywhere tour, you can find out for yourself! So with Stray Everywhere, and Stray Beds (vouchers for accommodation, which is not included in the cost), and my YHA card (Hostelling International Card), the total came out to $1950. Wowza. I will be getting on the bus that departs from the city at 7:45am (which means I have to leave the house around 6:15am TT_TT) on Thursday, so a little under a week from now.
At its shortest, the tour will take 32 days. But since I will probably want to stay in some places longer than the tour has planned, I'm thinking that it'll be 5-6 weeks for me. Closer to 5 than 6, but somewhere in that range. And taking into consideration that there are still places in Auckland that I need to see when I come back, I'm thinking that I'll probably leave at the end of January to go back home.
I'm excited, yet terrified. I don't know what to pack. I don't know how to pack. I don't know how to prepare. I just.. don't know what to do. I think the terror outweighs the excitement. Oh the horror of it all.
Anyway, after all that jazz, I finally went to Auckland Domain and walked around. Saw the duck pond, the tropical house, the gardens, etc. Took quite a few pictures of all the flora. These pictures, along with those from Parnell, will be uploaded eventually, I promise. I just can't say when. Am currently not in the mood to even get out my camera from its case :P
Ahhhh, speaking of camera.. I lost my 512mb SD card! I put all my edited photos to print out on that card.. and now I can't find it! I know it should be in my room somewhere, but I searched everywhere and I can't find it. Please pray that I find it soon!!!
Anyway, tomorrow Joseph is taking me along on a trip with his sister and a friend to one of the neighbouring islands. I forgot the name of the island ^^# But that should be nice. And at night is CocaCola's Christmas in the Park. Jeffrey was supposed to go with me, but he already has plans with his friend for tomorrow. He said he thought this was "next week." Hmmph. But I think I'm going to be able to talk Pastor Yang and his wifey into going with me, so I won't be alone *^^* I probably won't be blogging about it tomorrow, since I won't get home until around 11pm, but I will try to on Sunday.
As you can see, things are--just possibly--starting to look up. And on that note, I will leave you with lyrics from a happier song that I found on my lyrics search, and a song that I personally love: Josh Groban's "You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)"
Don't give up, it's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy, I will lift it for you
Don't give up, because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well, I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up, because you are loved
Don't give up, it's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside, I will be there to find you
Don't give up, because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well, I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up, Because you are loved
You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved
1 comments:
wow coming home early, but at least ull be traveling!! and omg, over a month of just PURE traveling. so crazy. it sounds so much fun though! lucky. :D
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